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5 for 5 Brain Dump – From December 5

If you don’t know what 5 for 5 Brain Dump is, Here to find out more.

The prompt on December 5th was;

When I trust the process I ….

5 minutes, here’s what happened.

When I trust the process …

… I no longer carry the weight of OMG – What if it doesn’t work?

… I watch as my ideas unfold and take shape.

… I am often surprised at the direction my thoughts take.

… I recognize the freedom that God has given me. To process by writing, speaking,    singing, asking questions. By being very quiet with no expectation needed.

… I am free to express my ANY thing that burns in my heart. (like my daughter Mary does)

Fearless. Expressive. Free. Unchained.

I am most grateful for this process.

It keeps me trusting, open, and free of the childhood mess that entrapped me for most of my years.

This is the end of my 5 minutes. Even here, believing every bit I’ve said, I was tempted to edit.

But that is not the process of the 5 for 5 Brain Dump.

And I choose to trust the process.



Who Are You Really?

On one of my self-excavating pilgrimages, I asked myself this question.Magnifying Glass

First I will tell you, that on these pilgrimages, of which there have been many, my travelling companions have been God the Father, His son Jesus and the Holy Spirit.

My strong belief is that through this trinity, the truth and life can be found.

The excavation can be lengthy, and often times raw, but well worth the treasure found in the end. Quitting came to mind many times, but I had to remember to keep my eyes on the prize; Freedom.

That being said, I began my journey with the old soundtrack running in my mind. You may even share the same soundtrack. It is the old song that tells you that you are ordinary, rejected, overlooked and insignificant.

In order for me to be able to show up, to tell my story, to use my voice, I needed to know exactly what God thought of me.

The first thing I did, was locate what my mentor and teacher Graham Cooke called “Inheritance scriptures”. If you are familiar with the Bible, then you should have no problem here. If you are not, let me just say that I believe it is the complete and totally true Word of God, a map and guide to how we should live our lives.

Just so you know, there is no judgement here if you believe it, or even if you don’t, but that is the direction I am coming from.

So. Inheritance verses. Life verses. Verses that come to life every time you read them. At times, even though you may know them, believe them, trust them, the old soundtrack still tries to take over. This is where it is important to keep your verses close at hand.

I enjoy the Psalms, many of my inheritance words were first uttered by the subject David. He was so real. Happy, sad, powerful, weak, joyful, angry, courageous, fearful. Full range of emotions. Many of his words fit me, and most likely you too, here are some, my inheritance words, I claim them for myself, you can claim them too;

Psalms 18:19 (Speaking of God) He brought me into a spacious place; He rescued me because He delighted in me.

Psalms 57:1b I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings until the disaster has passed.

Psalms 119:65 Great peace have they that love your law. Nothing cause them to stumble.

Psalms 4:8 In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone Lord, make me dwell in safety.

Psalms 131;1-2 My heart is not proud, Lordmy eyes are not haughty; I do not concern myself with things great matters or things too difficult for me. But I have calmed and quieted myself, I am like a weaned child with its mother; like a weaned child I am content.

All of these verses give me rest. I call them to memory when times are hard. They buoy my spirit, and keep my heart strong.

But none does that for me like this last one though; I share it with you, to make you strong;

Psalm 139

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

You have searched me, Lord,
    and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
    you, Lord, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
    and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?
    Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
    if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
    if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
    your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
    and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
    the night will shine like the day,
    for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
    How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand—
    when I awake, I am still with you.

23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
    test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
    and lead me in the way everlasting.


He knows us. He tells us what He thinks of us. He tells us who we are.

We are not ordinary, rejected, overlooked or insignificant.

Join me again here again as I share more of my “Excavation of my soul”.




This Weeks 5 for 5 Brain Dump Challenge

If you don’t know what a Brain Dump is – You can go Here to Find Out.

This weeks challenge/Prompt is this question …..


What does it mean to be alive?

We will write about this prompt each day this week.

When we do this, each day seems to get a little deeper.

When I do this I tend to find out out things I didn’t even know I thought.

So join me, won’t you?


Day #1. We are to consider this question each day of the week. It is a multi-layered question, and I don’t know how to answer it – but here goes.

To be alive to some, I am sure, is simply about breathing in air, taking up space. To others, just to wake up, to not have their life taken in their sleep.

I want my life to be more than that. I want it to be about noticing what others miss. In my mind. With my eyes. Using all my senses, breathing in the air whether it is new or stale, musty or fresh like spring. Air that either assaults my senses, or soothes them.


That’s it. 5 minutes already?

Until next time.


The Soundtrack of Our Lives


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The Sound Track of Our Lives

One of the first times I heard of Graham Cooke,

was several years ago at a conference for Aglow International. 

A phrase he used was “The soundtrack of our lives”. 

Those words stuck in my heart like an old song. 

They caused me to begin an investigation of my heart and life so profound that I had no idea where those notes would take me. 

I have spent no small amount of time picking apart my “soundtrack’ and learning how to place each note firmly into the lap of Jesus. 

Here is a quick list of just some of the things I discovered along a not so quick exploration of what was underneath that “soundtrack”. 

There is only room for one headline.  

We are prone to only being able to process one trauma at a time. 

When we become assaulted with trauma after trauma,

our minds have an amazing ability to protect themselves.

If the “soundtrack” is loud enough,

we can drown out the pain and confusion of those assaults.

We convince ourselves that we are strong enough to handle it all alone.

If we cannot handle it alone,

our tendencies lean towards placing blame on others; 

If someone else would have….. then we could have….. 

If someone else didn’t ….. Then we wouldn’t ….. 

We can fill in the blanks however we need to. 

The fact remains that we aren’t facing our own trials and tribulations.

If there is no one else to blame,

we deny that there is a problem at all.

Denial sends our trauma to the deepest part of our hearts.

It hides there and plays quietly over and over and over again,

until something happens to bring it all back to the surface again.

When this happens, we continue to hear that “soundtrack”. 

We keep on hearing that one track over and over,

which diverts our attentions everywhere except where it needs to be.

Dealing with our trials and tribulations head on.

This can take the form of any kind of compulsive behavior, excessive habit or addiction. 

From sleeping to eating to drug and alcohol abuse. 

From over working, over exercising, over vacationing,

over internet-ting, over hobby-ing, over TV/movie watching,

over anything.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think any of these things are inherently bad.

It is in the over use of them that they become a dangerous continuous loop.

I know that this is just the short list of things that play constantly in the background of our lives.

These are our own personal “Soundtracks”.

Everyone’s is a bit different,

But they are good place to start.


So.  What’s the answer then?

How can we change the our tune? 

How can we get to a different station?


We have tried just about everything. 

These “soundtracks” made us think we were getting better,

getting past the trauma.

The truth of the matter was,

these fixes only last a short time before the distracting “soundtrack” begins again,

Each time, louder than the last.

Personally, I have found only one thing that works,

And that is the Word of God.

Which is the very thing that my “soundtrack” wants to cover up.

Since God’s word speaks in a still small voice,

His voice is easy to miss.

I have to be really intentional about hearing it.

I have to place myself in a position to hear His voice.


The following categories of thought have been a great help to me;

*Mind renewal

*Listening for His voice

*Replacing the continuous loop of negativity by singing a new song

*Receiving joy from God Himself

*Being very intentional about all of the above


I have to choose it. 

Choose joy. 

It will not come to me all by itself.

Following are some scriptures to peruse.

You can use one or all.

Each is beneficial.   


Psalm 51:10  Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

Colossians 3:9-10  Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator.

Romans 12:2 Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.

Isaiah 28:23   Listen and hear my voice; pay attention and hear what I say.

John 10:27   My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.

Hebrews 3:15   As has just been said: “Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion.”

Psalm 33:3   Sing to him a new song; play skillfully, and shout for joy.

Psalm 118:14 The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation.

Psalm 98:4 Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth, burst into jubilant song with music;

Psalm 119:54   Your decrees are the theme of my song

James 1:25  But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it—he will be blessed in what he does.

1 Chronicles 28:9   “As for you, my son Solomon, know the God of your father, and serve Him with a whole heart and a willing mind; for the LORD searches all hearts, and understands every intent of the thoughts. If you seek Him, He will let you find Him; but if you forsake Him, He will reject you forever.

 Hebrews 4:12  For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart.

1 Samuel 16:7  But the Lord told him, “Samuel, don’t think Eliab is the one just because he’s tall and handsome. He isn’t the one I’ve chosen. People judge others by what they look like, but I judge people by what is in their hearts.”

Psalm 16:11 You will make known to me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; In Your right hand there are pleasures forever.

 Psalm 126:5 Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. Psalm 94:19  When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.

Psalm 33:3 Sing to him a new song; play skillfully, and shout for joy.

Psalm 149:4-6   For the Lord takes delight in his people;he crowns the humble with salvation.  Let the saints rejoice in this honor and sing for joy on their beds.  May the praise of God be in their mouths and a double-edged sword in their hands.

Please take some time to find out what the real soundtrack is for your life. 

The one God created for you, not the one that the world has fed you from the beginning.

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.  Psalm 139:14

If you need help getting started, please visit the rescue page at the top of this blog.

                A new “Soundtrack” awaits you.