Your story should have been better. Not a nightmarish fantasy. Your story should have given you a better sense of yourself.
Your true self. Created by a God who loves you. Created for a specific purpose.
Remember Sam’s words~
“And sometimes you didn’t want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why.”
To be sure, things cannot go back to the way they were, back before the trouble. Time has gone on too for that. That would be fantasy.
But here’s what I know for sure.
If we must ask “Why?”, then this is the answer.
Genisis 50:20 (NASB) As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good in order to bring about this present result, to preserve many people alive.
Psalm 30:11 (NLT) You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy,
We should however, stop asking the “Why?” question, and begin to ask a few different questions so that healing can begin.
These new questions that can be answered right here where we live;
1. What does this mean?
2. What do I need to do now?
3. What can I learn from this?
How do I know this works for sure?
I apply these questions to every circumstance that would have my story go dark again.
The sting of rejection.
The suspicion of those who promise to help me, then don’t.
The abandonment I feel when I don’t receive the love and care I desire from the people I love.
The shame I feel when someone’s sarcastic remarks, or proclamations make me feel small.
The anxiety I feel when situations leave myself or my loved ones in a vulnerable spot.
The answers to these three questions are always the same.
This means that; Old habits die hard. Old scars can still cause pain. Wounds not properly addressed, come back again and again, full of infection.
What I need to do now is; Get quiet. Forgive the transgressor. Repent, if I had a part in it. Forgive Myself. Ask God to use His healing word to repair the wound. Since I don’t live in the Lord of the Rings fantasy world, I need to read the truth. The truth of God is the only True Healer. I can find that in my Bible.
What I can learn from this; I can learn the truth about just how much God loves me. I can learn His true feelings towards me. I can learn to recognize the attack as quickly as it occurs. After I have found these truths, I can use them as a tool to rewrite the story from the enemy of my soul.
Here are some scriptures to help you begin your process.
Rejection: 1 Peter 2:4 (NLT) [ Living Stones for God’s House ] You are coming to Christ, who is the living cornerstone of God’s temple. He was rejected by people, but he was chosen by God for great honor.
Mistrust: Isaiah 45:19 (NLT) I publicly proclaim bold promises. I do not whisper obscurities in some dark corner. I (God) would not have told the people of Israel to seek me if I could not be found. I, the Lord, speak only what is true and declare only what is right.
Abandonment: Nehemiah 9:19 (CEV) Because of your great mercy, you never abandoned them in the desert. And you always guided them with a cloud by day and a fire at night.
Shame: Psalm 25:2 King James Version (KJV) O my God, I trust in thee: let me not be ashamed, let not mine enemies triumph over me.
Anxiety: Psalm 139:23 (NASB) Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts.
This is what we’re holding on to!!
There is only one caveat to gaining this help.
His eternal help is available only to those who trust in Him.
Psalm 37:28 (NLT) For the Lord loves justice, and he will never abandon the godly.
He will keep them safe forever, but the children of the wicked will die.
If you have not trusted Him with your heart yet, please visit the “Rescue” page of this blog by clicking the tab at the top.
The worlds help, is a fix that does not have eternal effects.
Gods help, is a fix that lasts for eternity.
What are you holding on to?