Although I was tall in stature, taller by a head than most of my classmates, I’d always held the secret of being intimidated by giants. It was rare to be around girls taller than me, and when I was, I was intimidated.
As an adult, I am what many would call average height. So that part of my life came and went. What I never knew, until I grew older, was the non-physical baggage that that intimidation had left behind.
Sounds funny doesn’t it? Carrying baggage about being tall.
When you are bigger or taller than most your age, you are expected to act differently. Act your age. Straighten up, fly right. In my case, I was told to act my age and not my shoe size. Adults around me expected me to behave in a manner that wasn’t appropriate for my actual age.
So basically, what this leads to, is a little one not knowing how they are supposed to act, because they are not intellectually or emotionally to that stage yet. Some will act out, be loud, boisterous behave badly, others will hide away, building a hard shell around themselves for protection.
I’ve always thought myself a little of a split personality in this area. I went back and forth. The two sides of my personality did constant battle. I could act out, or I could hide.
My poor mother. She never knew which one would show up!
Now a days, I recognize that battle more about personality than size.
You see, I’m an introvert. I am not shy.
I am quite capable of taking the lead on things when needed, public speaking, or calling out things I may see as wrong.
The secret of introverts aren’t made up of by the lack of those traits.
The secret of introverts, is that they need much more time than the extrovert to charge up their inner batteries. When they are charged up, they often appear to be extroverts.
I said all this to say this. I don’t have to feel intimidated, and neither do you.
Get proper rest. Have adequate quiet time. (Adequate for you, everyone is different)
Take the time it takes to recharge.
When properly charged, you can be Bigger, Taller, Stronger. Or at least appear that way.