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On My Mind Today – Too Hard – Too Blind – Too Dead

Some days I am a Saul.

English: Ananias restoring the sight of Saint Paul

English: Ananias restoring the sight of Saint Paul (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I am hard against God.

I need to hear God.

I cannot see.

I do not remember the things that God

has prepared for me.

I need an Ananias.

 

Some days I am Aeneas.

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Page 238v: St. Peter heals Aeneas / St. Peter raised Tabitha from the dead, Act 5:12-18 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Paralyzed maybe not in my body,

I may be paralyzed by my own fear.

I need a Peter to help me to stand.

Some days I am Tabitha.

I become sick and die.

There is no strength left in me for the living.

I need a Peter to believe and show me how to regain my life.

Acts 9

Saul Is Converted

1 In Jerusalem Saul was still threatening the followers of the Lord by saying he would kill them. So he went to the high priest2 and asked him to write letters to the synagogues in the city of Damascus. Then if Saul found any followers of Christ’s Way, men or women, he would arrest them and bring them back to Jerusalem.

3 So Saul headed toward Damascus. As he came near the city, a bright light from heaven suddenly flashed around him. 4 Saul fell to the ground and heard a voice saying to him, “Saul, Saul! Why are you persecuting me?”

5 Saul said, “Who are you, Lord?”

The voice answered, “I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting. 6 Get up now and go into the city. Someone there will tell you what you must do.”

7 The people traveling with Saul stood there but said nothing. They heard the voice, but they saw no one.8 Saul got up from the ground and opened his eyes, but he could not see. So those with Saul took his hand and led him into Damascus.9 For three days Saul could not see and did not eat or drink.

10 There was a follower of Jesus in Damascus named Ananias. The Lord spoke to Ananias in a vision, “Ananias!”

Ananias answered, “Here I am, Lord.”

11 The Lord said to him, “Get up and go to Straight Street. Find the house of Judas,[a] and ask for a man named Saul from the city of Tarsus. He is there now, praying. 12 Saul has seen a vision in which a man named Ananias comes to him and lays his hands on him. Then he is able to see again.”

13 But Ananias answered, “Lord, many people have told me about this man and the terrible things he did to your holy people in Jerusalem.14 Now he has come here to Damascus, and the leading priests have given him the power to arrest everyone who worships you.”

15 But the Lord said to Ananias, “Go! I have chosen Saul for an important work. He must tell about me to those who are not Jews, to kings, and to the people of Israel. 16 I will show him how much he must suffer for my name.”

17 So Ananias went to the house of Judas. He laid his hands on Saul and said, “Brother Saul, the Lord Jesus sent me. He is the one you saw on the road on your way here. He sent me so that you can see again and be filled with the Holy Spirit.”18 Immediately, something that looked like fish scales fell from Saul’s eyes, and he was able to see again! Then Saul got up and was baptized.19 After he ate some food, his strength returned.

Saul Preaches in Damascus

Saul stayed with the followers of Jesus in Damascus for a few days.20 Soon he began to preach about Jesus in the synagogues, saying, “Jesus is the Son of God.”

21 All the people who heard him were amazed. They said, “This is the man who was in Jerusalem trying to destroy those who trust in this name! He came here to arrest the followers of Jesus and take them back to the leading priests.”

22 But Saul grew more powerful. His proofs that Jesus is the Christ were so strong that his own people in Damascus could not argue with him.

23 After many days, they made plans to kill Saul.24 They were watching the city gates day and night, but Saul learned about their plan.25 One night some followers of Saul helped him leave the city by lowering him in a basket through an opening in the city wall.

Saul Preaches in Jerusalem

26 When Saul went to Jerusalem, he tried to join the group of followers, but they were all afraid of him. They did not believe he was really a follower.27 But Barnabas accepted Saul and took him to the apostles. Barnabas explained to them that Saul had seen the Lord on the road and the Lord had spoken to Saul. Then he told them how boldly Saul had preached in the name of Jesus in Damascus.

28 And so Saul stayed with the followers, going everywhere in Jerusalem, preaching boldly in the name of the Lord.29 He would often talk and argue with the Jewish people who spoke Greek, but they were trying to kill him.30 When the followers learned about this, they took Saul to Caesarea and from there sent him to Tarsus.

31 The church everywhere in Judea, Galilee, and Samaria had a time of peace and became stronger. Respecting the Lord by the way they lived, and being encouraged by the Holy Spirit, the group of believers continued to grow.

Peter Heals Aeneas

32 As Peter was traveling through all the area, he visited God’s people who lived in Lydda.33 There he met a man named Aeneas, who was paralyzed and had not been able to leave his bed for the past eight years.34 Peter said to him, “Aeneas, Jesus Christ heals you. Stand up and make your bed.” Aeneas stood up immediately.35 All the people living in Lydda and on the Plain of Sharon saw him and turned to the Lord.

Peter Heals Tabitha

36 In the city of Joppa there was a follower named Tabitha (whose Greek name was Dorcas). She was always doing good deeds and kind acts.37 While Peter was in Lydda, Tabitha became sick and died. Her body was washed and put in a room upstairs.38 Since Lydda is near Joppa and the followers in Joppa heard that Peter was in Lydda, they sent two messengers to Peter. They begged him, “Hurry, please come to us!”39 So Peter got ready and went with them. When he arrived, they took him to the upstairs room where all the widows stood around Peter, crying. They showed him the shirts and coats Tabitha had made when she was still alive.40 Peter sent everyone out of the room and kneeled and prayed. Then he turned to the body and said, “Tabitha, stand up.” She opened her eyes, and when she saw Peter, she sat up.41 He gave her his hand and helped her up. Then he called the saints and the widows into the room and showed them that Tabitha was alive.42 People everywhere in Joppa learned about this, and many believed in the Lord.43 Peter stayed in Joppa for many days with a man named Simon who was a tanner.

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Dear Father in Heaven,

I persecute You Father, and I do not even realize it.

Help me to hear Your voice.

Send someone Lord to help me to see again.

You have chosen me for an important work.

I must tell of You to those who don’t know You.

Let the scales fall from my eyes Lord,

So that I may see the work You have prepared for me.

Lord, let the people be amazed by the difference in me.

Let the Name of Jesus be glorified.

Keep me from danger so I may continue on with the life plan You have for me.

Let the people believe that the change is true Lord,

And help them to desire that change for themselves.

Send someone to help.

Use the “Buddy System” Lord.

Help me to be bold in my telling of You.

Help me to live my life in a way that is respectful to You.

Lord, when the deadness tries to return again,

Send a “Peter” to speak life back in to me.

May all the rest of my days glorify You.

In the Mighty Name of Jesus,

Amen.

 

When You Were Seven

This past Sunday our Community Hour Class began its summer session; “Proverbs; Making the Wise Wiser”.

During the introduction, we were each asked to answer a couple of questions around our table.

These questions were meant as kind of an ice breaker, and a lead right in to the topic we are studying.

Well they were ice breakers to be sure, but to me one of these questions was so much more.  It sent me on another journey, into the background that makes me who I am.

All of the time I have spent on introspection, I would like to think that it is all finished.

As we have spoken of in a previous post, it will not be finished as long as we are here on this earth.

However, our Merciful Father in Heaven will allow no more than we can handle at any one time.

Each journey into our background and back out again, carries with it another piece of healing, filling in the puzzle that is us.

English: Puzzle Svenska: Pussel

Have you ever been putting a puzzle together and many pieces go together quickly?

Have you noted that in the very same puzzle, some can take a long time to place?

Each of these remaining pieces needs to be inspected.

They perhaps need to be held in your hand, and placed and replaced until the proper

place is found.

If you do not enjoy the process, you probably will never finish the puzzle.

The question we were asked, seemed very innocuous at the time it was asked, but the more I reflected on it, the more I could sense that this would not be over, just because the class was.

This pieced would have to be investigated closely.

Here are the questions;

* How many lived in your home when you were seven?

* Who was the warmest person in your life at that time?

Harmless questions right?

Well as the others spoke their answers, I sought my own answer to the question “Who was the warmest person in your life at that time?”

What I soon realized, was that I could not remember even one “warm” person in my life.

Were people supposed to be warm?

The only thing that came to my mind was that during my very young life, we used to travel every Sunday to my Grampas house in the country.

While there, I would climb the apple trees in his orchard and visit the hay mow in the barn.

Life was peaceful if only for a short time.

After dinner, I can recall clearly, sitting on my Grampas lap in his big comfy chair, eating popcorn out of an enamel roasting pan and watching Lawrence Welk.

I believe that was the safest, coziest, warmest spot I ever knew.

When the show was over, it was time to load up and go home.

My heart longed for our return the following week.

Those visits came to an abrupt end, when there was a misunderstanding between my Father and my Grandpa that got me a beating that today would have landed me in the hospital and my Father in jail.

Father never apologized and Grandpa would not let him return until he did.

I never got over the fact that it was my fault that we could not visit any more.

My warm person/spot was gone.

Grampa came to town to live with us several years later, after my Grandma died, and my Mother and Father divorced, but our relationship was never the same.

I knew it was my fault.

I didn’t find out until much later why it had changed so drastically, and that was that I had grown up, and he didn’t feel that hugging or snuggling with a girl my age was proper.

So NOT my fault.

But the damage was already done.

So.  After class, I was compelled to come and go through the family photos left here by my Mom.

There I found snapshots of brief moments of family life.  Brief shots.  Brief smiles.

I also, sadly, noticed that in nearly all of the photos of that time period, the smile never went to the eyes.

That sounds strange maybe, but it was there.  I saw it.

Here are two photos I found of myself.  In one of them, my favorite one, I was four.  See the light in the eyes?  They twinkled.

I think this may have been before I found out I was defective.

See the second photo?  Age seven.  Sad smile.  No twinkle.

I’m still processing what I see.

I’m still examining every piece.

With God’s help, and His alone, I will be able to fully place the truth, and go on to another piece.

Ladies and Gentlemen; here is the truth;

YOU ARE NOT DEFECTIVE!

AND NEITHER WAS I!

Psalm 139:13-16 (NIV1984)

13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place.  When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, 16 your eyes saw my unformed body.  All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

 

Do not be afraid of the process.

Join me in placing the pieces where they rightly fit.

Let us hold God’s hands together,

And believe the truth.

John 8:32 (KJV)

32 And ye shall know the truth, and (He) the truth shall make you free.

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Distracted Encounters

This is a re-run, but then, we tend to re-run.

Changing our default settings are never quite as easy as we would like.

-He invites us to encounter with Him

-So much more to see

-You fail me not

Selected words sung by Justin Rizzo –

Worship Leader for IHOP Kansas City

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Not so long ago, during a morning encounter with God, I had a sense in my heart that was so strong.

The sense was that the more I know Him, the more I love Him and that the more I love Him, the more I want to know Him.

Does this make sense to you?

You’ve been there too right?

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I heard Chuck Swindoll say once that “The problem with our being a living sacrifice is that we keep

getting up and crawling off the alter”.

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And so we find ourselves, a few months down the road wondering where the closeness went.

We still love God with our hearts, but somehow, that passion has cooled.

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Little by little.

Just a little shorter quiet time today.

I’ll just read this email first.

Oh wait, was that today?

Just a few more winks.

Little by little.

God gets hedged out.

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UNTIL …………………

There is some sort of tragedy or drama or event that sends us to our knees.

This is when we try again to regain what has been lost.

The closeness.

The encounter so close that we could hear His heartbeat.

At this point the distractions scream louder than ever.

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This is where I find myself now.

I want to encourage you and myself.

Be intentional.

Don’t let the distraction keep you away from what is most important.

You know.  I know.  We know.

That if we put Him first, He will always make everything else work.

In His way.  In His time.

And we know that we did our part.

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He really made our part simple.  Not easy, but simple.

Seek Him.  Love Him.  Glorify Him.

Let our light (Jesus in us) so shine before men.

Let’s do this together.

Push back at distractions and lean forward into the Presence of the Everlasting God.

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You are fearfully and wonderfully made.

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