True repentance could be my only response.
A bit later, one of the speakers’ team prayed with me. She told me that I was living with “Death Structures.”
I did not know what “Death Structures” were, but my journey to find out was only just beginning.
As this woman was praying for me, she began “bringing down” “Death Structures” by “Speaking Life”. This vocabulary is not typical to most people; in fact, it is quite strange to some. It simply means that she was praying that the bad things wouldn’t continue their hold on me, and that through my obedience to God, death would lose its grip on me.
While she was praying, in my mind, I could sense God telling me;
“It’s your mouth.”
On the drive home, I prayed a bit myself.
I told God that I knew how to speak life, and I knew how to speak death, but I had been speaking death (and living it) for so long that it was habit.
I asked Him to please help me to recognize when I was doing it. I knew that it would probably take quite a bit of time, and perhaps a really long time.
So I started right away. I knew it would have to be an “Inside job.”
A job beginning in my heart and radiating out.
After a good night’s sleep, I awoke with a fresh mind.
I took my Bible and some paper to my upstairs office and began with the following prayer;
Lord, I tear down ALL the death structures in myself and my household. It must begin here and radiate out. Amen.
Not much of a prayer you say, but oh what a powerful beginning.
Proverbs 6:2 (AMP) You are snared with the words of your lips, you are caught by the speech of your mouth.
Luke 6:45 (ASV) The good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and the evil man out of the evil treasure bringeth forth that which is evil: for out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh.
James 3:10 (ASV) out of the same mouth cometh forth blessing and cursing. My brethren, these things ought not to be.
If Jesus was truly in my heart, then shouldn’t I be way more careful about what comes out of my mouth?
Victim speak could no longer be acceptable.
I would no longer be able to claim the heart of a victim,
but the heart of Jesus instead, which is a victorious heart.
- I would have to find out what an over comer would speak like, and begin to do it myself.
- Grumbling and complaining could no longer come out of my mouth.
- Talk about other people (gossip) could not be mentioned in my daily discussions; no matter what it was they had said or done.
- Oh and, what about that “debt/poverty” talk? I needed to stop it – God would provide.
I would certainly need some help in all of these areas and more.
The only reliable help I could find, would be found in God’s word.
Words of life could be found there, and I would need to find them.
I could consider it a treasure hunt, and I would be the finder of buried treasure.
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