Today my heart turns to longing.

                                                    What is it I’m longing for?

Is it a longing for possessions?

Is it a longing for fame?

Is it a longing for fortune?

Is it a longing for what the past has taken away from me?

Perhaps I long for a future unaffected by my past.

 

What my heart knows for sure is this.

If I’m longing for the things in this present world, I will be trapped by the care of them.

So called “Fame” will quench that longing for only a brief span of time.

Fortunes can be gained and lost with the stroke of a pen or the ring of the bell on Wall Street.

I can waste much precious energy brooding over what I have no ability to change.

My past has shaped the person I am now and in the future.

 

So what is it I long for that none of these things have the ability to fill?

I long for what is of eternal value, not the things that I own that only serve to tie me to the care of them.

Approval that lasts.  Not fame in the eyes of men, that is fleeting and fickle, where outward appearance is all that matters.

True treasure that is sustainable.  Often worldly wealth gains nothing but more sadness.

A remembering of the past, but without the searing pain of shame and regret.

A story with a “Happily ever after”.  Without my past, I would be different person, without my history, I would also be without my husband, my children, my grand children and the friends that surround me with their love and support.  Without it, the life I have now would be a life I could not even hope for.

 

So how do I achieve satisfaction for this longing?

                                                                                       By seeking His presence.

Matthew 6:33 (KJV)  But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

1 Samuel 16:7 (NASB)  But the LORD said to Samuel, “Do not look at his appearance or at the height of his stature, because I have rejected him; for God sees not as man sees, for man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”

Matthew 6:19 (NASB)  “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal.

Psalm 30:11 (NLT)  You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy,

Mark 8:36 (KJV)  For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?

       So.

 I will seek His presence.

I’ll trust Him for everything I possess, and believe  that He knows what I have need of and let Him provide for me.

I will seek His presence.

I won’t strive to be famous, only obedient to His precepts.

I will seek His presence.

I won’t seek richness as the world defines richness.

I will seek His presence.

I won’t ruminate over my past. I will use those energies to have a deeper relationship with God, my heavenly Father.

I will seek His presence.

I will use the old template of my life, and turn it around to build the opposite in my future.

I will seek His Presence.

Would you seek His presence along with me?