I’ll never forget those words as long as I live.
What kind of words are those to speak to a girl who is barely a teenager?
Scripture tells us that words have the power to bring either life or death.
Well those words spoken to me during that time, used their power to bring death.
This bio-dad of mine spoke words of death over me, his own flesh and blood.
Did he know? Did he care? That really doesn’t matter now.
The fruit of death simmered next to my heart,
rotten to my soul for the first half of my life.
Those words burned on my insides,
and confirmed that I was indeed worthless.
Their poison had soaked into the very fabric of my being.
I had no idea what God said in His word about me at the time,
so I simply acted out what I knew to be true.
I became a “Bad Girl”.
The words bio-dad said about “good” girls continued to simmer on the inside.
Proverbs 18:21 (NIV) The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit.
As a young mom I wondered that there must be a way to protect my children from the same mind numbing shame.
Not that they would be abused,
But I felt that somehow my “uncleanness” would somehow get on them.
It became ever important for me to find out how to keep them safe from the same fate.
What would I do with the words spoken to me? Could the power of those words be changed?
As a young Christian, I learned that change was possible.
(Please see the Rescue page on this blog if you do not know Christ)
I found I needed God’s point of view on the matter.
Then, after reading the verses 500 times,
I read them again, and this time, they went straight to my heart.
They told me what God Himself thought about those words of evil spoken over me.
Here’s what they said;
John 6:63 (NIV) The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you—
They are full of the Spirit and life.
Could it be that what God thought of me was the exact opposite of bio-dads words?
It was certainly worth a try.
So I put my trust in Him.
Over and over and over.
Those old thoughts were sticky and hard to get rid of.
Persistence and believing what God said now began to rule the life I was living.
It was a new life, a life of truth.
My history held no surprise for Him,
And God only needed for me to acknowledge HIS thoughts to begin healing.
Psalms 139:13 – 16 (NASB) 13 For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother’s womb. 14 I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well. 15 My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth; 16 Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Your book were all written The days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them.
You will read these last verses probably more than any others on this blog.
These words are true.
These words are life.
These words are what God thinks.
The real truth is, it doesn’t really matter what anyone else says!
He knew you before you ever were, and made you special, for a real reason, for His glory,
and believe it or not, a real relationship with Him!
So please consider writing these verses on a card and keeping them handy.
Read. Recite. Repeat.